I have no idea why I feel so sad all of a sudden. It feels like the things I do don’t matter, and the people in my life aren’t as close as I wish they were. There are amazing things! Rationally, I know I am so blessed in a lot of ways. I have friends, I have a great family (even if they are all in Europe), and I have a job. I have my two adorable cats. I have a roof over my head!
But, I ended up watching Secret Millionaire today (Oh, did I cry!). I always felt like I could be so much more, I could do so much more, but I’ve never had that idea that could take off. I’ve yet to do something revolutionary in a macro scale. I know I’ve changed lives, made things better, made and impact. I know this! I just want something more. I want that cash, so I could help people. I want to. I want to give to a good cause, but right now…I struggle just to be me.
And it really bothers me.